Fragility

Sometimes the thought of another step seems incomprehensible. Current circumstances overwhelm me to the point that facing the uncertainty of moving forward terrorizes any progress at all. Maybe you relate? For me, it does not have to be the physical exertion of moving forward, but often times it trends toward blockades of the mental or spiritual kind, battling thoughts or distancing my convictions from what the world would have me believe. The warfare emerges due to knowing one thing to be true, yet inner demons whisper in my other ear to entangle me in the mire of lies, of fear, of isolation. The tumultuous path to reach freedom from this can seemingly bind me leaving me fatigued, fragile. Any person who knows me well, knows that feeling fragile is not something I deal with... well. I am definitely learning the hard way that weakness can actually be a strength if we humble ourselves for the glory of God. It is this idea, this belief that brings me comfort recently. It is the fact that every single day I have the option of giving it all over to my Most High so I may rest in Him. This rest is much needed. It's a rest I cannot find through sleep. It is peace. By no means does this mean I do not feel fragile still. However, it allows me to acknowledge that my fragility may serve a higher purpose. I must not doubt my Lord, nor should I fear or fret. The following verses shine much light in these times of weakness, such as when weariness sets in or taking another step becomes too burdensome or when I feel too suffocated by my shortcomings that interrupting a destructive thought pattern does not even seem like an option. But through God's Word, I know differently. I know His grace and His faithfulness. I know I can trust Him even when I cannot trust myself, which sometimes seems often. May we find rest from feeling fragile in Him - peace-filled, satisfied knowing His strength, His grace, His unconditional love is enough.

"The Lord himself goes before you and will be with you; he will never leave you nor forsake you. Do not be afraid; do not be discouraged." (Deuteronomy 31:8 NIV)

"Jesus Christ is the same yesterday and today and forever." (Hebrews 13:8 NIV)